I'm doing this so people with a common experience can relate, myself included. I have these surpressed feelings from recent experiences, but no one cares about me to listen. So, I'm branching out.
Pretty girls have it so easy. Every guy wants to be with them, and other girls do as well. Everyone likes pretty people. They’re more likely to have more confidence, so they have better relationships and job opportunities. They are more likely to have good business relationships as well as a good love life. They get better grades because teachers have been statistically proven to give higher grades to more attractive girls. They’re more likely to have awesome life experiences because everyone wants to give the cute, pretty thing other pretty things in life. It fits, right?
What does it matter if I’m ugly? My feelings don’t matter. There’s no reason to pity me. I’m not cute and delicate like she is. I’m ugly. So to feel like I need protection against bad feelings just doesn’t fit. It fits, right?
But what about my emotions? I’m still a human! I feel trapped! I can’t take it! I need to escape! I freaking don’t care anymore. And yet – I care! I just don’t want to care anymore! I don’t want any emotions!
That way, since I can’t escape unfair treatment, at least I can’t have any jealousy, frustration, or sadness from it. It fits, right?
I like Skrillex. He’s an undesireable guy with his own flair. He used to live in illegal lots before fame, and he was a reject. Now, he leaves his mark on so many people.
Dang, especially those arrogant, petite girls that use their super-girliness to attract all the guys and purposefully act cute and leaves the boys in pursuit of them only and girls like me with much lesser of a choice! I don't even have a chance of any friendship! And, they act stuck-up about it too!
I'm sick of my predicament.
I've always wondered what the prettiest girls who happened to wear thick eye make-up looked like without it, though. They just look more natural and cute vs. their average pretty. Man, every time I try to ask them a question or something relating to class or etc., they just give me a snake stare like I've lost everything I could possibly have in life to make me happy, and that I'm ugly and a loser and an ugly loser.
"If you like the way you look that much, oh baby you should go and love yourself."
Guys are totally oblivious. They're too enthralled by their cute side and physical cuteness.
Man, I don't even feel like I deserve to listen to Justin Bieber's song "Love Yourself" because he'd ignore me if I met him in person. He already dislikes me. I know it.
I'm so thankful if a pretty girl doesn't ignore me or even goes so far as to be genuinely kind by personality.