I just went back and read 3 page of threads you created. You are so bloody antagonistic, full of hate, and self loathing.
Yes depression is a terrible thing to suffer from. A lot of people don't understand it. And you know what? Be happy they don't understand. Nobody deserves to or wants to experience the hell you and many others suffer through.
Some people try the "tough love" way of helping. It doesn't help. You know that. I know that and a hell of a lot of other people know that. accept it for what it is. An attempt to help. and move on. Don't start an antagonistic pissing match with them. You're only hurting yourself.
But quite honestly. People here have tried to help you. And in very few instances have you accepted it. Stop yelling at people in your questions. (all the capitals) easy off on the "FUCK YOU" responses. When you are doing that thread after thread after thread. What do you expect?
I saw that you tried therapy and didn't get any medication. Not all therapist Have the ability to prescribe drugs. Maybe you saw one of them?
Have you seen your doctor about this? You can make an appointment. Then after it's made ask your parent (s) to take you on that date and time. If they won't take you. Take a bus, a cab, ask a neighbour, walk. Just get there.
There is an old saying You will attract more flies with honey than with vinegar.
One day you'll learn to have thick skin. People are mean and cruel just to put themselves up on a pedestal.
You have a middle finger, so put it to work. Tell those people to f*ck off and get a life. In a few years none of them will remember who you are anyways, they'll be off doing their own thing, and won't even recall that they told you to kill yourself.
Because you're caustic. If you attack people it's not an easy way to make friends. I actually had never ran into you, so I looked at your conversation history, and I see abuse and poison coming from you. I understand that you are angry and working through some heavy crap right now, and this is a great site for that. But you must be respectful of everyone else if, (and that's a big IF) you want open and honest diolog.
many of the people telling you to go kill themselves are likely people who want to do it to themselves, but they end up projecting it onto you because they are tragically sad on the inside. On the other hand, you could be a racist ahole pretending to be a victim here, so I really can't give you a straight answer