"Would you rather be with an okay looking girl that likes sports, beer and video games and will greet you every morning with oral sex and breakfast in bed, or an extremely hot girl that's a crack whore and has seven kids? I made the hot girl sound bad enough to make me desirable, right? RIGHT?"
"How do I look? I say I don't care, but I really want attention."
"I really just want to start a figh... erm, uh, do you believe in God/feminism?"
I give him sex whenever and however but I'm still not good enough and "don't know what I'm doing" and he still insists on masturbating to p*rn or pictures of girls he finds hot on Facebook. He complains about everything I do inside and out of the bedroom and I just think I'm not his type or good enough for him.
One day he loves me and the next I get punched in the face (Like today but didn't get a black eye) and then the next he hates me and apologizes for anything he's done wrong. I don't know who I am anymore or why I've stayed with him this long but I think I'm a stupid person. I'm ashamed for tolerating it and stressing. I feel worthless. I'm moving tomorrow and maybe this will give me time to clear my mind and see him for who he really is?