Yo, everyone, girls and guys welcome you both. So, guys you'll get memories when you read this and girls, this will help you to understand a bit about the guys.
As a guy I have had many crushes, and each time I saw my crush I felt 100% rejoiced. When I stood there among others watching her stand calm and quiet surfing in her own world, I felt my heart rapping or DJ'ing. I was like "Oooh, babe!". Wow, that's a feeling I cannot explain in words. How much my friends(boys) encouraged me to talk to her I couldn't. I could just punch on the shoulder of any girl and say "Hi!", that's nothing but, to her? Saying hi? How can I do that?
When I keep staring at her I'm surfing, flying and rolling in a world of fantasy. But each time she glances and looks away, those dreams get popped like a bubble. I always had this fear (still get that fear) that if I talk to her how would she react? Would she kick me away like a trash can?
Just seeing her for a second would make my heart beat box boom-duf-duf-duf-duf and phewww!!! If I get a chance to stand next to her at the assembly, I would have sweet dreams in the daylight. While studying at home, I would doodle at the back pages of my notebooks. I could graffiti her name all over my bedroom walls. But, I knew that more time I spend insanely dreaming, the more risk I receive of losing her.
Anyway, I didn't get the girl I was speaking about. But got someone else.
The day she told me that I'm no more an ordinary friend to her and that I'm special, well, I felt so crazy. It's always so exciting when a girl says that instead of me becoming the ninja to ask her out. Well, however we became partners of a relationship. At first I was not in a ready mood for a love because I was used to my single life. As we talked and talked I felt a strange affection to her, like she being a part of myself. Her eyes were special to me and they looked glistening among other girls.
Every time I hold her hand, I felt that I'm special among other guys. Her hands felt so soft and warm that my heart always received some brave blood making me feel that I must protect her and care for her. I understood that I have greatly changed, I always focused my eyes on others who would try to grab her from me and I didn't care who I am, my heart's got a hard confident, a feeling that could release energy to fight with anyone to save her.
She told me things that an ordinary person could piss me off, but I laughed at those words honestly. When she laid her head on my shoulder I felt even stronger, it made me feel that I've got someone who really cares for me. I didn't demand anything from her, not even anything related to sex. All I wanted was pure love.
Time flew faster than a fighter jet, and it was time for me to tell these words "99% of teenage relationships won't work." That's when I found that she had many other guys inside her head. Time for a break-up!
It's really painful when you lose love or get to know that you cannot love her. As a guy I never felt like crying for some reason, instead I felt that a sharp thorn is piercing my heart and it kept me distant from everyone else.
Each time I felt this hurtful feeling because of a girl whom I wouldn't be able to own, I made up my mind, strengthened myself and began my life like normal. Love is wonderful like heavens and painful like a burning fire!
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Good take on it but why did you never ask out your crush after the relationship?
However I lost my feelings about her
Fair enough
So interesting!
good take