What do I do when I'm feeling depressed?

[Anonymous]

I grew up with selective mutisim (from 2 years old to 12 yrs) and after that it was just social anxiety, but my counselor saw no reason for me to go anymore since i never talked. My mom didn't want me on meds that early but im 16 now and i just started counseling again, and lately I've been feeling really depressed (my counselor said its from anxiety) I'm not starting meds for another 2 weeks, I just started school today and I don't know if i can go much longer, its scaring the shit out of me :/ is their anyway i can make myself not feel depressed and feel like everyone is starring/making fun/judging me?
And no im not suicida

[Sian__]

Go for a walk, in the park, in the country, enjoy the beauty of nature - the World is a beautiful place, especially with someone like yourself walking amongst us! Take care and remember the judgement of others means nothing! Find true friends and enjoy their company!

[Asker]

Thanks :) I usually go for walks every night but I've been exhausted lately, I try to get out as much as possible.

[matrixl1]

I wish i could help, i have the same problem, sept everything i do i always think I've done something wrong and get worried that someone hates me because of it ect, i walk at nights if not listen to music to try and escape the world

[Asker]

That actually sometimes happens to me, but mostly feeling like I'm gonna be judged over every little thing, its alright tho.. hopefully the meds will work alot!! *prayingg*

[matrixl1]

It's a pain, I dislike it, i keep getting that shitty feeling that makes me feel sad none stop and even if im happy like if i where to ask a simple question to my GF and she doesn't reply or something (she never replies to it doesn't help) i feel like I've fucked up and she hates me and that she won't get closer to me nor open up to me more, like a simple thing will make me sad ;-; and i hope they do for you as well

[Asker]

I understand u, I hate it when that happens, it sucks!! Then sometimes when I tell someone about it, its like they don't understand at all and they think I'm crazy. And when I tell other ppl, looking for someone to calm me down, they think I'm being immature, and they don't wanna help me :/ but I got a few better friends now, not all understand tho.. thanks :)

[matrixl1]

not a lot of people will... i dont even know how to tell my girlfriend, because with my anxiety anything i say will make me think I've done something wrong and when she doesn't reply it makes matters worse, i wished it just up and left, and its good you do, i have three who help me, im hoping i can open up to the one i love, but keep those friends close

[Asker]

When your ready, try to tell, I always think exactly what I'm gonna say and she will most likely understand. Definelty Keep those friends close cuz I abandoned all of mine when I got a bf and when I got dumped, I had no idea where to go but they let me come back :) if u can't figure out how to say it, write it down in a letter and give it to her or find a website that explains what u feel, and show it to her!!

[matrixl1]

i will try, im a really shy person and i dont know if im to clingy or not, i love her she means the world to me and this holiday she said we are able to spend time with each other so im hoping we can talk alone ;-; but yer i will as well thanks and they are good friends then

[AlexCab]

You're doing right in talking to people.. that usually helps. It's good to be around someone if you're starting to feel you're going down. It might help get back up.