Having trouble controlling my weight and I feel like disgusting and want to die?

[Anonymous]

I did it the right way. No more than 1 to 2 lbs a week loss. I ate healthy and exercise. Now I am having bad binging episodes. I am not losing the last 10lbs. I am 5 ft8 135lbs. I run 8 miles a day and do spin and weight lifting on alternative days. One day 8 miles another weights and spin. I try to keep my workout different each day but I am getting bored with working out. I am finding comfort in food again.

I jus ate a crunchwrap and cinnabun bites (12). I feel so ugly and fat. I was trying to control my weight by 30 years old but I am still struggling. I keep track of my calories so its not enough to gain weight.

I am depressed. How do I lose the last 10lbs and keep it off for life. How do I end bad eating habits once and for all? I am so tired of looking at this in the mirror.

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+1 y

I dont have body dysmorphia. I said I lost weight.

[AlexCab]

Hun... just slow down and don't despair. You probably lost a lot of weight and gained some muscle, so those last 10 lbs will take more time compared to whatever you lost so far. You're doing great actually, and relapsing is really literally the most common thing. It means nothing, we are all allowed to do that from time to time. The actual challenge is to keep at it. Trust me, you're doing fine!

[madhatters4]

it sounds to me like you may suffer from body dysmorphia because 135 is faaaar from fat. I think the most important thing for you is to talk to a therapist and get counseling. it sounds like the issues are really stemming from your mindset.

[Man4DaJoB]

change your training rotation, jump the rope, try intinsive work out like sprinting, use those heavy ropes with both hands try lemon with water (no sugar) ... try 2 see where the extra pounds are located the most if legs try running jumping, stomach twister, hands try boxing and the heavy ropes

[kheserthorpe]

You're doing very well.

Are you sure have the fat to lose?

You need to have a way of eating at maintenance that let's you fit some treats in.

[MothMonsterMan]

Sounds like you need to go to a therapist. Your weight isn't the problem.