So I'm naturally skinny and some people might say that it's a good thing. For pretty much all of my life I've been tall and underweight. At the age of seven, I weighed 20kgs but was taller than pretty much my whole class. I was still healthy. Unfortunately I was bullied because of it for pretty much all of my life. The kids made me want to move schools or just crawl into a hole forever. I have freckles and pretty pale skin with frizz hair too, so people used to call me "Miss Scarecrow".
Now that I'm in high school, it's a bit different. I'm not tall or short for a girl (I'm 5'7") and I weigh 48kgs (with literally no boobs and I get teased for that too) which I guess is quite heavy. Even though I know that I'm not fat, I feel fat and people have started commenting on my "jiggles" or "chub". I have a toned stomach and a little thigh gap and my arms are quite muscular. I don't get it.
When I was ten, I thought that I was getting fat so I stopped eating for four days. Now, I sometimes make up excuses not to eat because I feel like I need to lose weight. People say that it's unhealthy. I guess I'd rather be teased for being a scarecrow and being told to eat a burger 24/7 than have people comment on the fact that my size 30 jeans look tight- even though they are slightly loose.
Basically, I could be the fittest girl in the world and see a girl who weighs 300 pounds and compare our bodies. I'd feel large and see the other girl as thin and that I'll never be good enough. All my life, I've either been to chubby or too thin for others. Is it just me? I can see people larger or worse off than myself and still put them on a pedestal and push myself to the bottom.
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Now that I'm in high school, it's a bit different. I'm not tall or short for a girl (I'm 5'7") and I weigh 48kgs (with literally no boobs and I get teased for that too) which I guess is quite heavy. Even though I know that I'm not fat, I feel fat and people have started commenting on my "jiggles" or "chub". I have a toned stomach and a little thigh gap and my arms are quite muscular. I don't get it.
When I was ten, I thought that I was getting fat so I stopped eating for four days. Now, I sometimes make up excuses not to eat because I feel like I need to lose weight. People say that it's unhealthy. I guess I'd rather be teased for being a scarecrow and being told to eat a burger 24/7 than have people comment on the fact that my size 30 jeans look tight- even though they are slightly loose.
Basically, I could be the fittest girl in the world and see a girl who weighs 300 pounds and compare our bodies. I'd feel large and see the other girl as thin and that I'll never be good enough. All my life, I've either been to chubby or too thin for others. Is it just me? I can see people larger or worse off than myself and still put them on a pedestal and push myself to the bottom.
Do guys get this too?
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