How to get better? How do I learn to forgive and move on?

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I was diagnosed with depression and inflammation in my head. I would push guys away because I thought I was worthless. The last guy ended it with me and ignored me after. I would keep msging him because when he wouldn't respond it would make me feel worthless and I thought I deserved it. He is now dating my friend of 10 years. how do I get better? How do I forgive myself? Should I try to make peace with him?
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Should I apologize to him?
How to get better? How do I learn to forgive and move on?
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