Could I be bipolar since I get SO upset and angry and in a downward spiral?

[Anonymous]

I have been wanting to get diagnosed for so long. Most days in the week I get so down on myself, or I take something someone said or did (especially if it is a loved one) and I let my mind twist it and blow it up and make me so angry I can't stand it. I hate them, I hate myself, I hate them for not giving me coddling in a certain moment, then I hate them for not letting me go and not letting me be free. It's like they can never do the right thing at the right time to match my mood.
I hate them, I hate me. I hate my boyfriend who does nothing but love me. I hate him for not giving me attention when I want it and then want him to disappear from my life when I get it.

That just seems soooo crazy, cooky and weird. I keep it inside, nobody knows I feel that way.

Or I think of people's motives... if they're being nice it means they want something, or it means someone said something bad about me so it means I'm nothing and now they can be nice to me out of pity.

It's just insanity. I know this isn't normal but I don't know what to do, I don't know what my problem is. I just wish I knew and what to do. I don't know what to do. I have been diagnosed with anxiety. Lately I can't help but wonder if I get this way because it's anxiety related. I'm just curious if anyone out there can relate at all... !!

[Meow-Girl]

I feel like this at times. I live by myself and i just can't bear it sometimes. I feel like i want a guy to be there for me and then no so much. I become angry with everything around me and start blaming myself.. almost always i just end up crying alone. Look there is no harm in getting diagnosed, just be confident and go for it. hopefully then you will get some idea as to what you can do about it. I know what you're going through... just hang in there... just seek the right help and i'm certain you will feel much better about it. Speaking of which i might just go as well

[Asker]

Thank you- I was in the same situation as you, coming from living entirely alone for a couple years. Now I have a boyfriend that lives with me and for a while before him I thought the same thing: want a guy to be there for me and then not so much. I think ever since him it's thrown me through a loop a little bit. I think if I had to give myself advice I'd say to finally get diagnosed because sometimes just having an idea can help, and with that being said I encourage you to as well! It's such a lousy feeling :-( I blame myself too. I get angry with everything around me… just the worst feeling. Like a black hole sometimes!

[Meow-Girl]

Pleasure hun. :) Yeah i agree, we need to get ourselves diagnosed. Aww, thanks... i will. Yip i know the feeling of just hating everthing around you far too well.

[Bethc90]

I would not necessarily suggest Bipolar disorder, with Bipolar you equally have periods of elation. I think your doctor is right with it being Anxiety. How is your sleep?

[Asker]

I was thinking this too, I never feel elated… I feel "blah" otherwise, which in comparison seems like a happy feeling!

[Bethc90]

Hows your sleep? and diet? do you feel like your blood is boiling all the time or just your time of the month?

As for the comment above; no we're not docs but im a psychiatric nurse by profession. :)

[Not_Helping]

We're not docs.

[beautifulangel76]

That's not really what happens when you're bipolar. When you are bipolar you have monet of being depressed and going into your "manic" stage.

[Anonymous]

you need a psychiatrist to make this judgment.