How to get out of a deep dark depression?

[Anonymous]

I have a very hard time dealing with break ups. I always have. I'm not a horrible or mean person. I give my all and it destroys me as a person when some just up and walks out of my life like I'm nothing. I've never been diagnosed with depression and I don't want to be put on medication. Right now I think I'm at the lowest point I have ever been.

I was truly head over heels in love with this person. Gave me a ring and everything. 3 months later he's already in a new relationship and it has sent me in a downward spiral.

I haven't bothered him or contacted him. So don't worry I'm not being a crazy ex trying to sabotage his life or new relationship.

I just don't know how to cope. I went down a dark path with a lot of drinking. I mean A LOT. but I quit drinking because it was getting to a scary and dangerous place. I'm currently enrolled in school again trying to get my RN. Now I've lost all motivation. I can't eat. I can't sleep. Everyday is a constant battle. Everyone says to push through it but once I get out of bed I just want to get back in it and not move.

Has as anyone else experienced this? How'd you get through it?

Ps- I don't have any close friends that I can just call and hang out with. I'm more of a loner with no one. Which is one of the shittiest parts.

[rsstanford]

How about you just cry or let out your stress by hitting something. You have to find a way to cope wether its working out, doing meditation or writing your feelings. Don't give up on yourself set some goals for yourself. Like waking up at 5 am every morning and doing productive things. Don't starve yourself drink smoothies if you can't eat. Figure out why you can't deal with things well. was it something that happened in your life that that has caused you to not cope with things. For me I try to do meditation for 20 mins a day it helps clear my thoughts and I'm more rational. I tell me myself I can do this over and over and just inhale and exhale and it helps me get through whatever situation I'm going through.

[Asker]

I've cried to the point where I have a headache. And anything can set me off on a crying binge. My mom simply asking me if I was okay or if I was depressed sent me into a crying spiral. But I didn't cry in front of her and told her I was fine.

[rsstanford]

Maybe do things that made you happy. Maybe get professional help too.

[Asker]

I probably do. Everything is just a constant reminder of the past. And I can't get it out of my head. I feel like I'm crazy and lost my damn mind. I guess the good part about it is the cause of the problem I've left it alone and haven't tried to do anything. (Basically I've left my ex alone and haven't been one of those crying crazy ex girlfriend who won't leave their ex alone)

[rsstanford]

Maybe you need closure from the relationship and for yourself then try new things

[Asker]

I wish I had closure but it'll never happen. We didn't even have a real break up. Our relationship kind of just stopped. I feel like the girl my ex is with now is part of the reason we split up. Even though they've only been official for a month. (3 months after the split up of our 2 year relationship) there's no reaching out to him now or vice versa. It's just trying to pick up the pieces of my heart that were blown apart.

[rsstanford]

Work on loving youry

[rsstanford]

Yourself

[Asker]

I don't know if I mentioned this in any previous comments but I have Graves' disease. Which is a thyroid disorder. Let's say something small stresses you out. Nothing big. To me it's like a volcano erupting. Something huge? Hell the world just ended. Everyone released their nukes. It's horrible to live with. It makes insomnia x17251717 worse whenever I'm stressed/depressed/anxious. I hate it.

And I need to learn how to do that to. I know I'm a great person. I love helping me. I'd rather give. I'd rather put a smile on your face even if my worlds falling apart. I think that's also my downfall.

[rsstanford]

So find ways to cope meditation is good

[BuchitaBuchys]

When you find out, let me know.

[Asker]

I haven't eaten in 4 days and maybe have had like 3 bottles of water since then. this is the lowest I've ever been in my life. It's starting to scare me. I feel so worthless and feel like there isn't anything worth fighting for anymore