What's wrong with me does this mean I have depression?

Anonymous
So I'll start by saying my life had it's ups and downs. My mom left my dad for his friend and they had their moments and arguments & fights. He was a drug addict (dad's friend). I was w/ my mom & her boyfriend for about a month. Til she lost the house and I was staying w/ my bro then my mom showed up 2 my school at the time and I left with her cuz I missed her. Then my brother kicked me out, and I had no way to go. So my dad takes me and his girlfriend fought w/ cuz I wouldn't agree to change what I was wearing that day and so they kicked me out. I was really upset and in distraught. I have cutted myself a couple times during that time. I was diagnosed w/ anxiety, and Trichotillomania when I was 11. I had no where to go after being kicked out of my dad's so I had no where else to go but to my aunt's there was a living hell. She would put me down by picking out my flaws, constantly complaining, called me pathetic, and told me that my grandma thought I was an imbecile.

I was w/ her for about 2 years til my mom came back down while she was here she and my aunt would argue which left us to go live w/ my bro and sister's. While back down they'd put me down by making fun of me, saying I was stupid and ignored me, and would make me upset whenever they seen I was happy and smiling.

It got to the point where I no longer smile as much. I don't have any energy and everyday I'm constantly tired and I have worse anxiety than I had before. It happens mostly when the sun sets. I have attachment issues and have became clingy w/ people. I was never a clingy person. I usually pushed people away. I hardly smile and I always feel down and my eyes constantly feel heavy. I also feel anxious at night when I'm alone. I'm really snappy and get annoyed by little things and I see things differently now. I feel like I lost my brain. I can't describe it.

Is this depression or what is it? I don't know what's wrong w/ me. My fam thinks I'm a negative person. I don't have any friends or anyone 2 talk too. So.
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There's so many things left unsaid but I had to keep it short since there's 2000 word limit
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Is there a way I can go back to my old self and to get these feelings to leave me? I'm tired of worrying, feeling tired, being snappy? I really do miss my old self even though I was struggling with self acceptance. I felt happier than I did than I do now...
What's wrong with me does this mean I have depression?
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