Why do I feel embarassed, and how can I stop?

honestdude10
so a couple days ago I felt a pain in my stomach and asked a trainer at the gym he said it might be a hernia I told my mom and she got scared because I had a huge back surgery about 2years ago but she was still worried well I went to the doctor he said I didn't have one and we were relieved but now my mom is making me wear a weightlifting belt I don't disagree its a safety thing and I do have a long line of family members with hernias but I also just view the belt as a sign of a bodybuilder that's been doing it for years I do want to be a body builder too and I am pretty big but I just don't see it as something I have earned yet and besides how many times do you see a16 yearold 5'3 kid with that belt I don't want to look like a pro because imnot one
Why do I feel embarassed, and how can I stop?
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