I have gained so much weight.

nikasnow27
At 15, I was 181 lb. Then I lost 40 lb and met the man I am with today. I got my first job at a pizzeria and got on birth control and you can probably guess what happened. I can't find a new job so far. My boyfriend isn't going to leave me because of the weight I gained, but I know he finds me less attractive. I am having such a hard time dieting and I feel so sorry for him that I can't be what I used to be. What should I do?
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My boyfriend tries helping me, but he never goes to the gym with me and I hate working out alone. Sometimes when he helps me it comes off as rude and I get discouraged, even when I know his intentions are good. I am just worried about him getting sick of me and moving on, and I really am trying.
I have gained so much weight.
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