So here are my legs.. I have had this ever since I was born. It changes in colour and visibility with temperature and it gets sore when it's cold. It's called CMTC or (cutis marmorata telangiectatica congenita). There's only one Wikipedia page for it and there's not much information on it at all because it's so rare. It's become more wide-spread as I grew up. It used to only be on my back and one leg but these days I have marks on both legs, (left leg has always been the worst) stomach and back. I was taken away from my mum streight when I was born because the doctors had no idea what these markings were on my leg and back. After a long while they diagnosed me with CMTC. this disease effects my blood veins and there is no cure. Our family has been so worried because we have no idea how this disease could effect me in the future since there is near to no research done on it.
Due to this disease, my left leg is much smaller, shorter and weaker than my right.
I hate walking down the street with shorts on and all people can look at is my leg. They just stare at it with disgust. If I wear shorts I have to wear skin coloured stockings, but even that doesn't hide the markings if my leg gets cold. So I try not to wear anything that shows my legs. Even in summer.
All my life I look at other girls legs just wishing to have legs like them. To me, legs are important to a woman and I feel less of one because mine are gross looking and weird. I used to love swimming as a child but I would get cold quickly and my legs would ache. I feel like I would have pretty legs if it wasn't for this disease. I've even tried putting makeup all over my legs before!
there's nothing much I dislike about my looks, my body is fine, my face is fine It's just this damn disease that's ruining my confidence.
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I probably wouldn't really have noticed that something was "wrong" if I didn't know this was some kind of skin disease.
Skin isn't perfect, it wasn't made to be perfect. It's never perfectly smooth. It's a bit hairy. It can get scars, bumps, acne. It can get red, itchy, dry. It can get bruises or other discolorations. If you're pale (like me) then your veins are very visible. Nobody has perfect skin, and the sooner you realize that your expectation for what skin should look like is way too high, the faster you'll be able to accept the way you look and you'll be able to love yourself.
The fact that you don't feel confident in yourself, it wouldn't surprise me that these "looks of disgust" you get from people are mostly in your own head. It's actually pretty surprising how little people truly pay attention to others, because they're too busy worrying about themselves and their own flaws. If you become more confident, people will pay less attention to your disease and will only admire you for being cool. And really, fuck what anyone else thinks about you because of your skin. If someone looks down on you for it, then that person is not worth your time anyway. You do you.7