I am hitting my mid 20s and religious. I thought by now I would be married. Many girls my age are.
But I am so scared. The older I get the more scared I get. My last relationships were both men who were jerks and didn't respect me. After the first I still had hope but after the second I really lost faith in love because he betrayed my trust and I don't want to make myself vulnerable again.
Also my last bf was divorced and an ass. Made me think what if my husband is like him and is a jerk and divorced me like he did to his wife. I see so many people get divorced. And so many unhappy people in marriages.
I am terrified of being with the wrong person. Being miserable in a relationship. My parents are married and don't seem very happy and the idea of being like my mom makes me shudder I would rather be alone.
I just broke up w my bf a month ago. Before him I used to always want to be with someone and I lowered my standards. Now I feel for first time in my life that I enjoy being by myself and making myself happy. For the first time I don't feel like a relationship or a husband is the road to happiness because being with a miserable partner is horrid and much more misery inflicting than being alone.
I don't even want a boyfriend now. I just want to be alone. The idea of commitment makes my heart race and not in a good way.
Am I just grieving my relationship or does this mean I should be alone? I don't truly want to be alone but I am terrified.
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If you do get involved and its your choice whether or not you want to date - date somebody you like - not somebody you settled for. If you can't find a man who is good enough (many of them are taken) - then stay single. I want a guy who obeys God's commandments perfectly - does not have sex before marriage, does not lie to get sex, does not get jealous of people, is classy and modest etc... I am single. Have a good career. When you have a good career - guys chase you like butterflies.1