So my whole life I have been fighting dsylexia, anxiety, ADHA, a speech impediment and depression. And my whole life I've been doing it alone. Yes I have a wonderful family who supports me and loves me but it's always been lonely because they never understood my problems so just pretended like I didn't have them.
My mom used to make me read and write a page of the dictionary every day after school to help me with both my speech impediment and my dsylexia but that was the only things she really help or understood.
It's been extrememly hard for me but I learned to do it all on my own. To catch myself in the act and learned to control my ADHD, depression and anxiety on my own. Most days it's easy other days it's impossible. I kept telling my mom But she never understood what I was talking about... Until today.
I've been very sick for the past 2 weeks. Yesterday night me and my mom got into this huge fight because I didn't tell her how sick I was that day and that I felt like I needed to go to the hospital. It got to the point where I was panicking so I told her "you need to leave. I am very sick right now and now my anxiety is getting bad. Which means a panic attack aka Soon I am going to have a very hard time breathing" and she ignored me and started to continue than finally she stopped yelling and sat and watched as I had a panic attack in front of her I could barely breath and I was still, between breaths asking her to nicely respect that I need to take care of my anxiety right now. So she finally left my room.
This morning she woke me up early and took me to the doctors. Which I hate by the way. I was sitting in the waiting room and was next in line when I got extremely bad chest pains. I looked her straight in the eye terrified and told her about them and for the first time in my life my mom look me in the eye with the look of motherly comfort and told me "just breath sweet heart. It's just your anxiety. You're going to be fine. He's just going to check you over and make sure it's not an infection and than you'll get your doctors note, you can drive down to your work and hand it to them and you can drive us home to get some hot soup and take a nap"
I am almost 20 years old and that at was the first time in my whole life my mom has ever admitted I had anxiety or any other problem with me other than my dsylexia and speech impediment. I have never felt so close with my mom before and ever since I was small I have told her everything. I am shocked but still extremely happy. I went my whole life so far thinking no one cared to finally having that comfort and support that I needed but never got! ❤️