Howard mentally feels that he is a woman, but is trapped inside of a body he wants out of.
He constantly has been told by others he will never be a real woman, and should stay the way
God intended humans to be.
Howard is in conflict with his feelings because he comes from a religious background.
He is made to feel inadequate because he isn't living "the true Christian life" according to his family and peers.
Howard tries his best to live his life as a male but he cannot fight the urges that seem all too natural to him.
When he looks down at his body, he feels disguised.
When he looks at women walking by, he asks himself,
"Why am I being punished? What did I do to deserve this hell on Earth?"
Howard feels he is living a outer body experience because he is taking on a role society says he has to be, not one he feels his heart is destined for.
Howard grows into a deep depression and becomes suicidal.
"If my own body has to be a jail, then what good is living when I am internally dying?" he asks himself.
It took Howard years to muster up courage.
Courage is what would bring Howard closer to achieving his true freedom.
Courage is what would unlock the gates that covered his soul.
Courage is what would allow him to give love endlessly, even though that was something he
felt he never received from any one.
Each and every person shut the door on Howard, when he told them he is now living his life as a woman and wants to be called Edrei.
Ah, this wasn't just a random name Edrei had chosen.
This name defined her by every means.
Edrei was a name that meant the words strength and power.
This is what Edrei would need to face the harsh world.
What's in question:
I have a transgender friend who was biologically born a male. She currently lives her life as a woman and even went as far as getting her name legally changed. In years to come, she will have gender reassignment surgery when she has sufficient funds to afford it.
I can't help but notice when I speak about her in conversation to someone else,
I am constantly being corrected.
I am told "It is a he" not a "She".
I understand that you cannot convince the entire world that they should agree with that particular lifestyle, however last time I checked there is such a thing called respect.
You don't have to necessarily agree with someones personal life decisions to hold high regards for them.
Shouldn't we respect what other people want themselves to be called?
If Howard wants to be called Edrei shouldn't you do so?
If Howard would like you to stop calling him a "he" shouldn't you do so as well?
Does your personal feelings have to interfere with your level of respect for a fellow human-being?
Your individual feelings about their personal life choices is a whole different topic and raises a complete other issue.
At the end of the day a person is still a person.
Why should we forget that?