I'm embarrassed and ashamed. This is not really a question, more like a confession. Tonight, I was particularly upset. Feeling ugly and insecure. So I did a stupid thing. I took some ice and numbed my leg and cut it with an exacto knife. I wanted to see the blood.
immediatly after, I regretted it. My life isn't that bad. Why was I doing this? I quickly scrambled to get rid of the evidence. The rest of my family is sleeping so I had ample opportunity. I had leftover gauze from my wisdom tooth extraction. I also recently made a cut off shirt so I put on the gauze and wrapped a piece of fabric around the gauze and concealed it under my night gown. No one knows, nor will they ever. Right now, I feel terrible. I will never do this again. Does anyone for have words of wisdom thy can help me the next time I feel down?
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Well you are probably depressed. I mean depression isn't about having a bad life its a brain chemistry problem. And its okay a lot of people self harm, its not particularly a good thing and it isn't to be encouraged but I would suggest talking to someone about getting help. There are little things that you can do to improve your happiness , eat healthier , exercise as it releases endorphins and those can make you feel happier in the long run. Try meditation as it can help people be alone in their own mind along with allowing them a few minutes of quiet and time to relax a little bit more. Listen to upbeat music , certain frequencies can affect your mood. And if you need go see a proffesional. Just be careful when trying out new anti depressives because everyones brain chemistry is different and because they don't do brain scans doctors practically play a guessing game with anti depressives, so sometimes people get a perscription that may work for someone else but cause them to be misserable. Just remember that you aren't alone0