I realize, the more cynical and bitter I've grown, the less I've really felt empathy or even care for most people. I deeply love my family and a small number of friends, but, most other people I've grown to view as nothing but assets and pawns. Like I said, a large factor being that I've grown far more cynical, since I know most people don't care about me anyway I'm starting to view my friends or acquaintances as objects to further my own goals. On some level I almost hold them in contempt because I know they don't really care about me, so I can't care about them, I hate that this is all just some pathetic game, people all trying to manipulate and use each other, and that I just happen to be better at it. Like I said, I don't see my family this way nor do I see maybe two or three of my close friends this way, but it disturbs me that I've started to view most other people like this. It's just... they'd put a bullet in my head without a second thought if they had to, knowing that I really can't view them as anything but, I can't care about them and I won't, they're nothing. I just want to know, how I can stop thinking like this? I started thinking about this when I realized that, earlier today I literally visualized my life as a game of chess. Am I turn into a sociopath, am I wrong, or am I right? If I am wrong, how do I change?
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Based on your questions you do indeed sounds like turning into a sociopath. You seem to have a very big negative and pessimistic outlook on life like there is no absolute beauty in it. Bitter at events that most likely happened to you at early age and that effected your thinking at your everyday occurrence. Basically you are a huge downer.0