there was another site like this called IIN when i was younger, I don't know how old but teens probably md to older teens. there was a topic on there that was comon on there... it was discused as normal, and tthat you shouldd do it. i read them, and it wasn't that i was interested, but i was desperate and lonly and i have severe depression and anxiety problems and I've been bullied all my life i actually believed i would be alone forever.
so i considered it , thoughts built up, and i prepared to do it, but at the door i stoped and i didn't do it. and i literally stoped maybe even cried and i prayed and thanked God for stopiing me. but... i still tried... it wasn't like i was was just about to do it like for example if this was a whore, we would be clothed outside the room before i stoped, but it wasn't a whore i think it was way more terrible and discusting.
i tried to forget , make myself think it was a dream, or that at least i didn't do it... it hurts and there are people close to me that i want to get closer to that i wish i could tell, but im afraid they will hate me or not talk to me, the ones i want to date won't date me... it makes me feel beter to think that God stoped me... but other times... i wish my life was like a game and that i could reset... even if it had to be at a game over. and i thinkk that if they found out... id let them end my game. it hurts so bad... but how sould i feel , should i fel i should teell them, llike say i got married should i tell her? the girl i like now would freek out if i did it, but not doing it yetgetting this close... u think she would?
please help... i cantt take it anymore.
Most Helpful Girl
Stop beating yourself up for something you DIDN'T do. You were having a hard time and made a bad decision, but you stopped yourself before you went too far. I personally wouldn't care if my boyfriend ALMOST did something terrible, and then realized his error and felt badly about it. I would only care if he actually went through with it.1
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Most Helpful Guy
I have done terrible things before. I am 100% sure that i am going to hell. BUt as for now , i know that i will never do it again. And that just makes me feel better. I will never tell anyone about it. If u want , u can talk to me about it and we will discuss about it.1