I am a senior in high school. I have moved my whole life and I started school this year at the same school as last year. I have no freinds and it is miserable. I am shy and awkward but not weird. I am really chilled out and know how to extend conversations even though I don't enjoy it. I try to put on a front when people talk to me and act happy when I am truly miserable. I cannot talk to my parents because we really don't get along. I come from a divorced family and it is a struggle living with either of them. At lunch during school, I usually just do homework in the library. After school, I either do the same thing or just drive around alone or go to an empty parking lot and write bars. I don't do sports because I really don't enjoy the sports they offer. I don't feel too inspired by my classes. I have dysgraphia which means my handwriting is shit. I have ADD but I don't take any treatment for either because of judgement. I was thinking of getting the ADD diagnosis and selling the adderall pills. Our insurance is part of the job so I am not harming my family, only a big corparation. I cannot find people I really relate to. I cannot be a nerd, I dress pretty nice and if I was popular, I would probably be in the convo for best dressed. I also don't do nerdy things. I cannot be a jock because my sport is rock climbing. I cannot find a medium at the school. I used to get along with the girls because they are more understanding but they got bored of me. Its not like I'm too ugly to have freinds, a lot of people think I am cute. But nobody approaches me to hangout. I feel like people are trying to get something for me. I can't talk to my teachers because they think I am a lazy piece of shit even though I study quite a bit but manage to get shitty grades and ace tests. I can't get a job because my parents want me to study and do sports. I use music as my escape. There is a girl I like and she used to like me but she lost interest. She is super popular but nice to me. Help
Most Helpful Girl
too much "i can't "here , first u should throw away those thoughts about u dont say u r miserable to not look so to other people , the only limits in ur life is the one you set to urself so find ur hapiness inside and show it to people they will apreciate you0
Most Helpful Guy
Number one, lots of people your age are in situations similar to yours.
Number two, I think your perception is not quite right in many of the things you've said. Things can easily seem way worse than they are, and I suspect that, to some extent, that is the case for you right now.
But that insight in itself will not help you much, I know. So just take it easy, man. When you get to college--especially if you go to a big school--you'll find groups of people who share your outlook, feelings and interests. That's when life really gets interesting for most people. Adulthood is way better in many ways than the high school life, I can tell you.
But take it in stride. You'll do great. Good luck.0