I'm clinically depressed, I hate myself, I am incapable of loving myself... In even liking myself.
I need help
Help me please
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Approaching it from the other angle, the absolute worst thing you can do is to keep it to yourself. You've gotta let other people in, because trust me, keeping it quiet is like the perfect environment to have depression fester.
Can you speak to a therapist? That is the absolute first thing I'd recommend. Talk to a parent or another person who loves you, and let them help you find someone to talk to.
Secondly, I know you said that you're not capable of loving yourself--and I TOTALLY believe that you feel that way, by the way--but consider this: you're battling, you're trying to overcome, you're reaching out. Those are things people do when they do care about and love themselves. And I think that's super courageous, too; reaching out is so not an easy thing to, on GaG or otherwise.
I know I'm really just a random Internet stranger, but for what it's worth, I'm proud of you for that. :)8