I dunno…I dunno how shall I call myself…a Christian or an atheist?
I was “born” as a Christian since I was an infant…later through ma life since teen years…. i’ve changed “groups” up to like 10 times…till now…currently I tilt towards Christianity a little bit more…
Well actually reason I change’s…. everytime I disagree wid an atheist/Christian…I tend to change groups…. i’m like “oh shit Christians r assholes…. i’ll go wid atheists”…. or…”oh shit atheists r assholes…. i’ll go wid Christians now…”
Personally…. i believe there’s a god…or better I WANNA believe there’s a god even if honestly I don’t have any proof of god’s xistance…. i like da idea of heaven and afterlife as a concept even if I have no evidence…
So how da fuck am I defined? As a Christian or as an atheist?
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I would say you sound more like an agnostic. It is normal to question your faith but the decision is ultimately up to you. You could read Rochard Dawkin's God Delusion.
I was raised Roman Catholic and my father passed when I was young so it was something I struggled with at your age as well. I ultimately decided I like the culture of Catholicism and it brings me comfort to go to mass but I do t believe in God and that's okay. I WANT TO believe in God but ultimately I don't. Famously Pascal's Wager/ Pascal's Dilemma dealt with this topic. He wagered it was better to believe and be wrong than not believe and be wrong. This is not the same as belief though.
You can hope and yearn to believe in God, go to church and what not but it isn't the same as believing in God. It isn't really a choice for atheists.1
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It's confusing because us humans have to complicate a simple thing, we get all carried away trying to decipher a book made by men, or turn on TV and see some guy try to tell us masturbation is bad, or porn will send you to hell, it's all just so confusing and ridiculous and causes people to just give up, you have these radical Christians with their "God hates fags" signs casting judgement on people using their free will, it's disgusting.. I use to be an atheist for a long time because there was so many "rules" and bad things that would happen to you being a Christian, I'd go to church and wonder what gave this guy the right to tell ME what's right and wrong, when he is just a flawed human himself like all of us, I'd see the basket get passed around gathering donations and wonder where money belonged in a so called "house of god", it made me angry even at the young age I was, I didn't know why back then.. Fast forward two years and I was a 17 year old atheist spending my days gaming and trolling online, I tried to tell myself there was no god, but my grandpa died and I was feeling lost and didn't know what to do, sitting in my room all alone almost in tears until I felt something I never had before, it's impossible to explain but I knew it wasn't just a corrupted world and I down here anymore. It's very simple to me, I love my fellow humans, I admit I'm flawed, I try not to cast judgement on others and I oppose evil, if I go to hell for that then so be it..1