To be honest, I've never been the rebellious teenager that a lot are. I never go out, I stay home and play my guitar at full blast. I'm very closed off, quiet a lot of times, and have been known to indulge in black/satanic magic readings, which fuels it a bit... I have thoughts of murder a few times a day, but this is a specific one. There is a famous person going to the local park (I don't want to be too specific) and I wanted to go see him, and it would take at most 1 hour and 30 minutes. My grades are not the greatest, As, Bs, Cs sort of, which is why my dad said no and went on and on about class and blah blah blah. At that point I left because I felt this surge and I felt as if I was just about to smash every single plate on that dinner table. Is this very bad? Is it because I don't let my emotions out?
Most Helpful Girl
That doesn't sound like a good feeling :( , I'm sorry :( *hugs*
I don't think fantasies like that are too abnormal, but if you've read about dark magick you'll probably know that energy like that that you put out into the world will come back to you.. You need some ways to express anger without hurting yourself or anyone else. Exercise can help get rid of all the crazy energy you feel, and keeping a journal where you can write down all the stuff you can't say out loud. Having someone to talk to would be really good I think; talking to a school counsellor maybe if you can, or to someone online who will listen to you (like in a counselling chatline)0
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DUDE!! SERIOUSLY, WHY WOULD YOU POST THAT? With all the shootings, and killings, are you just needing attention, or do you need to have the FBI and Homeland Security give you a thorough rectal exam?
Get help, or the Gestapo is going to be knocking down your door!!
What you posted is just FCKING SCARY with the shootings, recently!!!0