Im constantly thinking about how life doesent matter, there is no point because we are all going to die. I can't remember the last time i was truly happy. I'm constantly feel like im alone even though im surrounded by people, i have been self harming although i am 6 days clean. I am constantly thinking in the back of my head: you're fat, they hate you, you're not funny, everyone hates you. I don't even want to leave the house. The few people in the world who i want to spend time with, ignore me. I have multiple crushes, a guy who is a year younger than me ( im 15 ) who im friends with, a guy who is 2 years older than me who i am also friends with, my best friend who i think is straight ( im pansexual) but this one other guy who gives me a small panic attack when i see him, i really have a big crush on him and i have come close to telling him so many times but then i start having thoughts that he hates me, im ugly and i back down. I know the only way to make me happy again is to have someone to love since im so lonely... but noone loves me as far as i know and i don't have the guts to find out.
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Love comes from within. After suffering from depression from many years, I've learned that seeking approval from anywhere else only leads to more heartbreak. You've got to find your inner strength and resilience in order to move on from difficult situations. If not, everything will break you down. It's okay to be sad, it's okay to cry, but after a point, you've got to realize if that's who you really want to be. Therapy and counseling helped me immensely after realizing I couldn't stand on my own. I needed help from others before I was able to understand my true worth. Depression is not easy to overcome, but it is possible as long as you believe in yourself. And remember, there are some things, even if they are deep down, that are never worth sacrificing. It may take awhile, but once you find true inner peace, love, and happiness, nobody can take that part away from you. Also... at this age most boys are stupid and don't even know what they want, so don't overthink their behavior too much.0