even if it was only once. what age? how would you do it? where were you? what were you doing? what was the reason?
Most Helpful Guy
No, not in the conventional sense.
There was a time about ten years ago when I suffered from terrible insomnia, and let me tell you, when you suffer from insomnia, your loved ones suffer also.
Any rate, I went five days without being able to sleep (the reason why was complicated). I began to hallucinate. I saw a stop sign walk across the street by itself. I saw the cracks in the sidewalk spell out my name. I was so desperate to sleep, but I couldn't. I recall thinking to myself, "You know, if I go and put my rifle in my mouth and pull the trigger, that will be like sleeping. True, it will be forever, but at least I'll be asleep." It was not like, "Woe is me! I'm so depressed! I just want to end my emotional pain!" It was much more like, "I really really really need to sleep." Lack of sleep makes you stupid. It never advanced more than me just looking at my rifle and thinking, "Wow. What a great way to sleep."
I never told my wife, though I did tell my doctor (when I got around to seeing her).
I finally fell asleep when I was prescribed some sleeping medication after a five day non-sleep marathon. When I woke up, I swear I could hear angels singing! Moreover, I when I realized I had contemplated putting a gun to my mouth and pulling the trigger in order to get some sleep, I thought, "My God! That was stupid!!!" The doctor then told me to get exercise, lose weight, and eventually took me off the medication.
I had measles once with a temperature of 106. Yet I consider that five day bout of insomnia to be the worse illness I've ever suffered.1
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Most Helpful Girl
Yea I did. I thought about it when I was 13 I would feel like crap , mostly bc I was a nerd and I dressed different back then I tied my hair up in a ponytail the entire time , glasses , had braces and just simple outfit. I was in an a. p class and well barely made friends bc most of them where type of racists either most Korean or Chinese people hung out together and I was one of the few Hispanics that was in that class. I never got picked on but they would make faces and I felt terrible I wouldn't eat in the cafeteria I would eat in the library and well I was mad at myself bc I thought that's how my entire life was going to be like, being alone. I tried to cut my veins once and then started laughing bc I didn't know how stupid I may look once the doctor asks me questions or if I would even bleed out bc of the blade not cutting me properly , thank god I got out of the thoughts and I just kept going with my life I read books that where about hope in life and well now I am confident about myself I don't care if my teeth are crooked or if I wear a ponytail the entire time but I also changed back in high school I started putting my hair down and all the kids in class would want to touch it and play with it sometimes they would ask why I would feel to much for them and not talk to them if I felt too pretty for them but no I was always quiet but at the same time I would be talkative when a good topic came up and well I lived my life happy even if people tried to look at me bad or make me feel bad I would not let them get the satisfaction of looking at me like that :) life is beautiful and my advice is to make the most of it while you're here in this world 🤓😊0