Chances are at some point while reading this you'll feel the urge to scream at your screen, call me all sorts of names, and do unspeakable things to me. Don't flip your shit, just hear me out.
Couple of months ago I crashed my car. I was drunk... Go ahead vent it out, I'm gonna wait... I rear ended another car, the collison resulted in two totaled cars and my license getting suspended for 3 years. Insurence didn't cover jack shit because I was intoxicated. The whole ordeal cost me somewhere around 7K$. My wallet took a hit, but I can deal with that.
Ever since the crash all everyone's been telling me is: "You're so lucky, that no one got hurt." "God saved you." "Thank god that you got off so easy." "It coul've been so much worse", and all that horseshit. And I've honestly had it up to *here* with it. You know what? I don't feel fucking lucky. I lost a lot of money, my car's gone, I won't be able to legally drive for 3 years, and I have to listen to all these sanctimonious assholes lecture me for god knows how long. Having a car wasn't just a convinience to me, it helped me deal with a lot of stress.
As a matter of fact I feel like lady luck took a gianormous dump on me. See, I've driven drunk before, like a lot (I've heard it all by this point, but you're welcome to try and come up with something) With varying levels of intoxication and have *never* had a close call even. Now if something you've done a lot of times (like crossing the street), and has never resulted in any harm, one day ends with you in a hospital bed; Would you say that you were lucky simply because of the fact that "it could've been much worse"? "Well it wasn't my fault some drunk driving maniac ran me over. You had it coming!" you say of course. Well you could've avoided that with looking the both ways before stepping onto the street, it's not like car dropped out of the sky.
Anyways, I’m mostly venting here. I’ll get a lot of hate for this, by this point I’m so desensitized I can’t even hurt my feelings. Hopefully someone will understand, not condone, but understand.