What gives them so much pleasure in making fun of me and the way I look. They try to change me and dye my hair dark cuz they hate my hair blonde and they say im too nice and they always consider me stupid and once got the nickname barbie for a little bit. It hurt my feelings and I don't know why girls are so cruel. I've cried myself too many times from the way I've been treated and memories of childhood and wonder if I were considered beautiful the world and people would be nicer to me. No matter how kind and loving and nice I am too others I can never fully trust them anymore. I don't know why.
Most Helpful Guy
I'm sorry, Baby. It sounds to me like all your friends are, in some way, jealous of you. And all of you have self-esteem issues. It also sounds as though they treat you like a beach ball, batting you about at their whim.
For my advice:
1) find yourself a new group of friends. A group whose individuals are more self-assured and mature and don't need to tear each other down to build themselves up.
2) No one can make you feel bad without your permission. Don't give it to them. Same goes for manipulating; hair color, etc.
3) Your biggest problem appears to be a pathological lack of self esteem. Since your 'friends' suck and can't help you with that, you'll probably need some counseling to deal with that issue.
4) You're as beautiful as you feel. IMHO your profile picture is beautiful. Yet, your Recent Activities on your GAG page shows multiple examples of you calling yourself ugly. This is a lie from the pit of hell and you must learn to stop saying that to and about yourself. The counseling in #3 should help that.0
Most Helpful Girl
You're too naive towards girls. You need to get a grip and show them who's boss0