I honestly get so bored with life sometimes... I know it's a gift and there are times where I am gleeful and full of gratitude to be living (literally crying tears of joy, looking around in wonder), but they exist in between longer periods of emotionless, death-inducing boredom. Like everything seems so bleh. Careers all seem stupid. Food even turns to mush. Clothes are just pieces of fabric. Why be in a relationship? It seems like too much effort for nothing. What's the purpose of anything if the only purpose is what we give to it? I lose sight of the purpose quite often, and I find most things I do very empty unless I decide to buy into this fake reality everyone seems to be bustlin and hustlin about in, escaping from the truth of life. It all seems a bit crazy and I just get tired of it all. During these periods my social interactions take a nose dive as my anxiety soars. It's 3:30am and I cannot sleep. I don't even feel real.
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I can relate to you. Emptiness is not completely new to me. Everything goes boring eventually. People, such as those you thought were really your friends or that people you thought you can trust can lie, screw you over for their own best interest or personal gain, and then ditch you completely when you need their help or assistance. It just made me wonder why be blindly loyal and follow others in the first place.
Life comes with guaranteed pain, suffering and a death at the very end although I would hope death can be defeated through evolution and progression in various sciences such as bioengineering, nanotechnology, etc.
Boredom is Suffering. Boredom is what causes us to go find something to do in the first place even if it may not be the best or right things we do for ourselves or for others. Without boredom and suffering, all the so called pleasurable things in existence would probably have no actual value or meaning and yet we get bored or at least can become bored from things we had experienced over time and eventually.
Everyone and everything eventually will cease to exist, although I hope with scientific research and developments would eventually find some workarounds for it, at least for those that would consider it and want some form or way to continue to exist.
It's all very deep thinking. Makes me wonder what was the whole point of everything and anything other than that we either want it or think or feel everything and anything has any actual value or meaning.
As for careers are just you just work because you have to be able to support yourself and survive, being able to afford the rent or pay bills and feed yourself (or your family if you have one you need to feed), more often than not it's something really monotonous and repetitive and then to make matters worst you have difficult people you will have to face and deal with that you may not want to, and with the current economic climate and instability, you can lose your job from a company downsizing or layoff anytime unexpectedly.2