What am I doing here?
I feel pain in my heart and weariness in my soul
The things we do to "spend" our time and avoid what we truly feel...
Ah, I'm tired of acting this way. And I pretend that it is beyond my control, when it really isn't. It is my responsibility. But all feels too heavy to even act. It will be painful to even take action. And so, here I stay, paralyzed, lying to myself that I'm helpless, and being the ultimate coward...
Meh I just wanted to write this. It's a discussion I'm having with my own self. Ignore all this...
Why am I even looking at GAG right now?
What am I doing here?
What Guys Said 17
Don't brew upset you're running away.
Demons are far more frightening than any screen can portray. And far more real than our fragile philosophies can adequately describe.
Dance instead. Dance away from the darkness!
Sing in the light of day!
Because night is coming...
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I don't "know" how you feel but the description sounds like something I experience periodically. Don't forget that you have family and friends, so you are really not alone.1
Just to chip in on someone elses conversation, knowledge is king! Never stop learning. Even if you can't now, start again in the future. Remember, when you get a decend job, you can think, "Every minute that goes by, I'm $1 richer. Work harder studying now, that $1 will become $2 every minute.
You CAN do it. It's YOUR future!1
yo, im gonna be a little busy but I'll be back later. PM me if you gotta counterpart <31
i think if it was a question for yourself it would have been less desripitve on how you feel , but i like the honesty. and i have this kind of discussion to myself some times as well. and have yet to find an answer.1
Is it about medicine?1
So ur thinking of leaving?0
l'amour je pense1
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What Girls Said 7
For as long as I have Known you @Hooking Swan, Your Good Name and the Level of Nearly Guru, Is Almost Yours for You.
You serve a Great Purpose Around Gag Town. Many of our other Friends to the Ends may have gone, But having you here, Dear... Is where you Belong.
BFind Other hobbies to focus on to take a break in Between. I have had to do this myself in the past, Even Now, And when I do come on, It is More Refreshing and my Mind is More Motivated.
Good luck. xx
random stab in the dark but maybe you find it easier to be here, its a pretty simple place and none of us really put ourselves out there or make ourselves vulnerable. its safer.3
it happens to everyone. just close the lid and walk away from your laptop2