My parents asked me to come to the mosque and I'm going, I'm listening to the lectures. I went again today to a women's gathering at my mosque and they talked about Ramadan there.
I love being able to talk to people but I could not concentrate on anything. Anytime I thought about how my parents don't want to accept that I don't believe I God, I want to burst out crying. So I went into the bathroom and washed my face, so I don't look an idiot in front of anyone.
I honestly don't know what to do at this point. I don't feel strong at all. I can't sleep anymore at night either.
Most Helpful Guy
Unfortunately there isn't much you can do until you have the means to live away from your family. I understand how overbearing it can be just from my extended family but it is harder when it's your immediate family. You're a strong young woman so I know you can persevere. Feel free to message me anytime you want to vent too.1
Most Helpful Girl
Are they going to disown you or something if you don't go? You're 24, so they really shouldn't have any say in what you do, or if you choose not to believe. I get that it can be tough, though.
Try to talk to them about it again, and include how their lack of acceptance about who you are is negatively affecting your emotional and physical health.
Also, even when you go to the mosque, remember that in your heart and mind you don't believe in any of it, and that will be true regardless of where you are, so don't let going there and listening to it affect you. I had to go to church for a while after I stopped believing, and I just thought of it as being told nice (or boring) stories, participating in some harmless rituals, and interacting with people.1