I hate to self diagnose but I might have college depression. I spend a lot of time thinking of my future. If at any point, it appears I won't achieve the future I want, I will mentally snap and freak the f*ck out. Lately I have had one too many failures, event though they weren't my fault. I don't want to talk to a therapist because then I feel crazy but then my anxiety (which was professionally diagnosed) says I have to talk to a therapist because it's not good to keep this inside. I have a loss of interest but at the same time my anxiety says I have to keep going or else my life will really suck. I keep dwelling on my past failures even if I wasn't at fault. I feel persistently sad because my anxiety side really, really wants to succeed but my sad side of me asks how I am going to go about that. I have tried talking to my family but all they say is, don't worry everything will be okay. But I don't know if everything will be okay and I don't know how I am going to make my life okay. Is anybody else going through tough times?
Most Helpful Guy
Stop doing the things you feel you have to do. I was experiencing the same things before when I would exercise. I'd feel like I had to exercise and this made my cortisol raise which I confused for testosterone, and I would get so mad that I couldn't exercise any further because of how mad I would get, for no good reason. If someone tapped my shoulder I'd flip out.
There was a study on rats which I won't go into detail but ultimately they found that rats who did things they felt they had to do, had their cortisol skyrocket and resulted in them hiding in a corner not moving similar to my experience with me stopping my work out.
YOU are stressed because you are mentally exhausting yourself because you feel like you have to do this which you don't but you think you do.
If you realized that you can find a passion and pursue it and even make it your career, you'd result in having fun and making money on the job. You don't need a therapist, you need to pursue your passion whatever it is. My passion is running and my job is a bycycle courier and this job contributes with my running it helps with my run and I get paid more than $20 an hour (more than $3000) a month and I'm only 19.
Find your passion.1
Most Helpful Girl
Therapists aren't for "crazy" people. They're there to help people learn to sort out their feelings in a healthier manner. Is it crazy to get a tutor if you're not understanding what's going on in your math class? No. Is it crazy to hire someone to teach you how to play the guitar? No. Sure, there are plenty of people who don't need a tutor or instructor and can just learn those skills on their own. Not everyone can though. That's all a therapist is. If you haven't figured out how to deal with certain emotional issues on your own, they simply try to teach you how to do so.1