Most Helpful Guy
i was told i was ugly by a girl, and other times girls tell me to get the hell away from her, and that no one wants me.
ever since then i dont approach girls or talk to them, unless they talk to me first but its very short. im obviously afraid of girls, they are so mean, nothing lovable about them, other than whats on the outside.0
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Most Helpful Girl
See, this is probably the most beautiful thing about having a deep, COMPLETELY trusting, sexually submissive relationship -- it lets me reclaim, and "own", all the mean shit that's been said to me over the years.
I've *always* known that I've had a deep submissive streak in me, and that hurtful words have had a special power to play on my heart -- for good OR for bad.
I remember when I was 13 years old, suffering from deep depression, when I'd get out a notebook and just write out, over and over again, things like "I'm worthless"... "I'm nothing"... "I'm useless"... and so on.
I remember when people -- especially boys -- would say these things, however flippantly or casually, and they'd hit me unexpectedly hard in the heart when I was least expecting it.
If the wrong person had said them, one too many times... they could have destroyed me.
But, I met the man I love, and trust. The man I can completely submit to. The man I've given my whole heart, soul, and life.
During what might be called "role play" (but it's WAY deeper and more powerful than that), it's... strangely *liberating* to hear him scream these things at me.
"You're worthless!" From the man who values me more than life itself.
"You're nothing!" From the man to whom I'm everything.
"You fucking slut!" To his beloved wife.
Suddenly, these words don't hurt anymore.
They don't hurt at all.
Just like that... they CAN'T hurt anymore.
Because I know he'll never break my heart or my trust... suddenly, those words have lost all their power to hurt me. All they can do anymore is...
... turn me on.
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