Most Helpful Girl
I think i can be considered a loner since im shy and literally have 2 friends i dont talk to much nor do i socialize. Nothing really makes me feel alive. I like to just daydream and think about stupid shit like the world and love. I play video games a lot but the joy i get from playing video games is only in the moment i'm playing them. When i'm doing other stuff after i still feel like a loser. I do take little walks around my apartment when im really bored which i lamely look forward too. I feel creative and artistic and im learning how to draw and paint to express myself and i love doing it. But playing video games is the only thing that makes me somewhat happy.
For a short time period i was really into porn and i go introduced to a few fetishes. I think this is the same case with guy loners except girls have an easier time actually doing it. I dont know why but i'm into interracial porn for some reason and i haven't been to drop it. A lot of times i tend to have sex with black guys out of pure mind numbing boredom because it does make me feel alive and it fills the need to feel wanted and loved. I know its not healthy but when you're so fucking bored and lonely...
Fml, I just want to find love but im too self aware to know it won't "work out" with most guys. Also i have no drive.1
Most Helpful Guy
Learn and apply.
When you don't spend weekends getting your nails done, shopping for shoes, and taking snaps at the beach with your Tinder date, you have time to study the world around you and actually figure out how to make an impact that is meaningful.1