I was doing well. High B+ in my major (business). However, something happened and I started being super-careless to the extent where I failed a term. I took two years off.
One of my years was a nightmare. Not studying for exams, coming late on exam day, I was so... silly.
I did better in 4th year but not that well. Recently some of my peers were treating me badly. I was always treated well by the school and I am thankful for that, but really... did I deserve that nice treatment? Sometimes I ask myself that.
I feel sad I did badly. Sad that others did better. Sad that I lied to myself that people respected me when in fact they were probably laughing at me. I don't think I should go back there as alumni
Which is a terrible thing for alumni to feel