I've lost literally everyone I could have thought genuinely cared about and love me. Starting with my grandfather, then my great grandmother on my dad's side. This year my dog died, then my great grandmother, a month later in may, my grandmother, now my great grandfather today. (He was severely down and sad when his wife died) my aunt stole money when his wife died, then when her mother died and the elders don't believe she did it even with the mounting evidence. His only living daughter left (out of 2) talked him into getting a lawyer and signing the house over to his power of attorney (the aunt who's committed fraud) and a uncle of mines when he dies. She's more than likely cleared out his bank account by now and felt no remorse. When my grandmother died the beneficiary was supposed to split the money he only gave out $1000 to his siblings and kept the rest of the several thousand dollars left. Before this year even started I prayed for a great year with my grandparents and they died one by one. Now I'm left here, and I didn't get to talk to him last night or see him because my aunt sent him to a nursing for rehab and didn't tell anyone where he was and it was over half and hour away. Before he died I tried to keep his spirits up since he'd break down every day about his wife and I'd tell him that he was all I had left and I needed him. I've always tried to be a good person and I would die for them, I just wanted them to be OK and to protect them and now I have nothing. It's killing me so much.
Most Helpful Guy
I guess now you had also realize the "truth" that it's just all Emptiness and that it is Completely Unavoidable and Inevitable.
There is much bitterness once you've seen and experience first hand what it's like to lose someone close to you that you actually deeply cared about, whether it's family or friends. But do not dwell on it. It has happened already. Do not blame yourself for what had already happened because:
It was COMPLETELY BEYOND your Control.
You could not have known beforehand that it would be their time to go and nor could you have done anything to really prevent what had already happened.
"You can't bring back the ones you love. Trust me. But you can honor their lives by helping others. It's the only way forward."0
Most Helpful Girl
I dunno, I'm going with "non-existent"
I've also completely lost my faith in any higher power. Couldn't tell my mother because she's insistent that Atheists have something wrong with them, but God's abandoned me too many times to be even remotely close to what everyone portrays him as1