I've suffered for so many years now, and it's just.. so tiring. I wish it would stop..
I don't know how to put it into words either so it can be fully understood. The world sucks. Everything sucks.
My entire life is one negative ball that never stops.
I've started becoming fat and am being teased by my own ''family'' about it too.
School will be starting again really soon and not even half of my projects are done, and I look and feel like a mess and am honestly not ready to deal with anything.
I feel so scared of continuing to live because I know there is nothing out there for a stupid person like me.
I have no future and it's scary and I wish I could end it all already.
I don't even need to be officially diagnosed with depression to know if I have it - I'm pretty sure I do.
I don't need or care for taking any fucking drugs or supplements. Those won't fix me.
It's hard not being able to do anything each and every day except cry.
I feel like I'm a nuisance to everyone around me. I don't do anything productive. All I do is get in the way of everything. Don't tell me ''it gets better'' because it really doesn't. I doubt it can get any worse than it is now. I have a ''family'' who say they care, when they really fucking don't. I can never talk to them about anything. They never take me seriously. All they do when they see me is poke fun at me or swear like I'm nothing but a walking puppet. No one understands. I can't even confide in my best friend because I know I'm bothering her too. I tried many things but I'm talented in nothing while everyone else around me is surrounded by loving friends and family and are athletes or singers or pianists already and it's so hard being the only one to suck at everything. Life is just horrible. Nothing is going well. My self esteem couldn't possibly get any lower. I feel like crying wherever I go - I just don't feel like I belong anywhere and all I'm doing is wasting time. I want to die.
Most Helpful Guy
I promise you that things do get better. Especially once you turn 18 and can move out. And you life has value, and brings others happiness. That may not be today, but that will happen some day. If you stay alive, there is a 100% chance you will affect someone in the future and work through this pain. If you take your life, there is a 0% chance that will happen. There are hotlines you can call that have people who can help you. If you need to talk to someone, as much as an internet stranger can help, please feel free to message me.1
Most Helpful Girl
What is the point of this question when you've basically even said you don't feel like doing anything. So your not even making the effort to change things. You complain you haven't done your coursework - well do it.
you complain your becoming fat - well shift it
your saying you don't have a future but your not even trying
and im sorry but this sounds more like teenage angst than depression as your taking it out on other people. And that's coming from someone who was actually diagnosed a few years back with manic depression0