I'm a 17 year old male and lately I've been feeling like I have something not right being sociopath, narcissist, or something. When I was a young child I never can recall having too much empathy or compassion towards humans. Animals on the other hand I do, though. I mean when my pets would die as kid I would cry but get over it in a few hours and be alright. When my grandfather died I never shed a single tear, even though I was 11ish at the time, it still is strange. I always had "loved" him and I spent lots of my life with him just didn't feel too "sad" I guess. The last year ever since I turned 16 I have definitely changed. I used to feel "depressed" but I guess at the time I would pretend to be upset or depressed to get the reaction I wanted from a person. Lately, as more time passes, my emotions feel "shallow" per se. Like I usually if someone says something mean to me or something that would upset someone, I'll feel upset or have a "feeling" for maybe a minute or so and then I'll easily ignore it and never think or worry about it again. Lately, I have a tendency to "lie" to people to get me to like them more. I'll say what people want me to say and I just do it. Almost if not ALL my laughter is faked when hanging around people, especially friends and people not super close to me. My personality is more just "calm" and "chill," quiet at times. I can get angry very easily, and it comes in short bursts. If I'm mad I'll calm down in less than an hour. I feel like I'm not "normal" I guess but I'm kind of glad. It's probably bad but if I am a sociopath, or narcissist then I would love it. I feel like they are superior to us, not the serial killers but the good ones. What do you guys think? I could just be thinking this but who knows. Any questions I'll respond, thanks!
Most Helpful Girl
Your concern over whether you are or aren't speaks volumes in itself. Reading what you have to say, I wouldn't worry too much about whether you are a sociopath.
You seem to demonstrate depersonalization and dissociative tendencies more than anything.. but you're not likely to find a therapist here. And if you did, they couldn't help you without therapy.
So first order of business is get therapy and work out some of these issues. You seem like a good kid to me though, darlin.0
Most Helpful Guy
It sounds like you're concerned. If you're concerned about being a Sociopath, you aren't one.
Mental health is notoriously inaccurate. To be diagnosed a Sociopath you basically possess five traits on a list of traits. So if you manipulate and lie sometimes, you're probably a Sociopath. Doesn't mean you have no empathy at all.
And tests for this stuff are a joke because Sociopaths will lie and bluff.
I wouldn't worry about it dude, I think you're fine. Sounds like you may be depressed and may suffer from anxiety though.0