After getting hospitalized for being suicidal and knowing I'm going to get treatment. I start Thursday but I feel hopeful for my future for the first time a really really long time but it also makes me a little scared. Why is that, its not just how I'm getting treatment but hope is actually a little scary to me.
Most Helpful Girl
Because it also provides you with uncertainty2
Most Helpful Guy
A few reasons for that
Hope for the future, creates change. As much as we want to get away from dark times, change is unpredictable. Meaning we don't know what will come from the change
In your case you're leaving a comfortable situation to be in, a place that felt like home, somewhere you desperately tried to go but thankfully it didn't. It could also be a fear of just falling back into old habits
Be hopeful, be fearless, and push through but never look back. Only to reflect if you need to1