I'm really depressed, stressed and anxious. I'm only eighteen years old but I feel like I've lived a lifetime. I feel well beyond my age... I feel old. So much negative things have happened in my life up until this point. Bad thing after bad thing... it just doesn't stop. I keep waiting for a break but I never really get one. I've been a Christian in the past but through that period of my life, which was ten years, my life didn't get any better, in fact it got worse, so my faith got less and less strong. This resulted in me questioning God a couple years back, questioning life and everything in it, which led to an existential crisis and me leaving Church and God. Every-day I get worse and worse. I feel like I'm dying day-after-day. I'm at my breaking point. I can't take this anymore. I don't know if God is really real anymore, I need proof. I plan on fasting everything: technology, food etcetera and just push into him by reading his word and praying. I want God to show me that he is real by giving me a full beard... like one day in my fast I'll just wake up with a massive full beard (I don't really have facial hair so hence the beard). This is my way of knowing whether God is really real or not. I don't plan on stoping the fast until this happens. If I die, then I die. But I just really need this, I need to know if he's really real. I need something to live for. I need meaning and purpose in my life. Nothing feels real anymore, the world around me and the people in it. I just need to know that God is real, that he's really real. Do you think this will work?
Most Helpful Girl
Listen. God knows exactly what your doing and planning. And you need to stop. Because your mocking him. And he is not going to do something just to please you because you already lack faith in your heart. Your not saved, and that is your problem. If you can't learn to fully surrender your life, your heart, soul and will over to him and believe that Christ died for your sins, then wasting your time. I don't know what are you looking for, but I believe its a whole more than just proof that God exist. There is an eternal struggle going on in your life that is not healthy. And it hasn't been for a very long time. Something very personal that you haven't actually spoken to anybody because you felt they couldn't really help you.
Okay, the things your going through is because of your stubbornness to acknowledge that he is real. He knows your heart and your soul. That includes your true intentions. God is not some genie. And you need to wake up to that fake. People are dying and going to hell every single day because their not saved. As a Christian who believes in God and see him manifest in my life, I will tell you this. He does not need to prove himself to people. You need to prove yourself to him. Your 18, but as I said you need to get saved. That means seeking deliverance and wanting to serve him. Not your way, His way. You need to change your heart. And the only way to that is to actually WANT to change. Are willing to give up this life and the world for him or are you against him? Make your choice. Because time is running out for everybody. The problem is not God, its you. And you need to stop having religion and learn to have a relationship with him. Because to you, God is just a God. But to me God is my heavenly and spiritual father, not just some God to worship and praise. Figure it out. Or you trying to fast will be in vain, and you will just disappoint yourself. It won't be God doing that.1
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Most Helpful Guy
God is real my friend you can see God everywhere in his creations, the earth, the plants, the animals he saved my own life when I was at a dark time, darker then yours.
As for proof God doesn't work like that he has nothing to prove to you he's not going to give you a beard to prove he is real. You should spiritually fast but not to have a beard but to talk with God ask him questions, converse with him, get closer to him.
And as a Christian you shouldn't expect an easy life no one ever became a Christian because they wanted it easy, as soon as we declare our life is for God we're marked by Satan and he'll use every ounce of his power and everything at his disposal to attack you and make your life a living hell. I should know because he's been doing that to my entire family for decades bu we haven't given up, not even close if anything all those attacks all the stress and horrible things that have happened to us has brought us closer to God and made us have more faith in him because he's lifted us out of every situation the devil has put us in.
And a word of warning never test God, it won't work, it even states in multiple places in the bible to never do that.
The best place to find evidence of God is in nature and the universe look at how everything is so unique and different, diverse but yet it works perfectly down to the atomic level, look at how everything in the universe is so perfectly placed just right, not to much but not to little like how if the earth was placed any closer to the sun we'd all burn to death and life would struggle or how if we were any father away from the sun we'd all freeze and life would again struggle. But yet the earth was placed the perfect distance from the sun so that life could flourish and a varied ecosystem of tropics, desert, cold/winter, warm and oceanic environments.
All you have to do is look my friend.0