There waa a time last year that I was so sad that I just wanted to be more social, I was always rejected by the other girls, I was always being told inappropriate things by boys. I always dressed different I would we're fishnets and short skirts because I liked how it looked. I had a stalker who was series and took pictures of me, I was so scared, I got a boyfriend who I am In love with and he loves me we have been together for a year now since I met him I feel better, I haven't had any bad thoughts since then. I was put in the hospital for my thoughts and attempts of staving to death. I wanted to watch the people run away from me. I wanted them to know I am capable of anything, and my social skills we're better than what they think of my aspergers. I would flirt with death and write poetry, I cryed way to much, I had a pregnancy scare with my boyfriend. I was bluemic I threw up everything before all of this happend. I still crybto much. I just wanted to see the confusion and fear I wanted them to not know what I was going to do, I have never told anyone this, am I bad person? When I was little my cusson who was my age melested me several times he wold ask for blow jobs and everything I felt so scared when I was around him. I feel so scared of the judgment that I am about to receive. But I would feel terrible if I told no one ever. I would write poetry on dinosaurs and death and even my lovely boyfriend. I think I am happier now than I ever have been since I got ourmt of rehab last year, but I am still scared over my halusinations and scary flashbacks.
Most Helpful Guy
I will not hate you. I know some people go through very hard times and I can adjust with knowing that aspect of their live. But what is more important is not what I think about you. but how good you think about yourself. In that positive thinking lies your happiness. There are people who will always be able to support you. trust them always.2
Most Helpful Girl
people are not going to hate you. They are going to want to help you. You don't need to be ashamed of who you are. Shit happens girl and life goes on. Just work on being the best you you can be2