I missed another day of school... again. I don't understand. I have gotten well enough to go to school and I can't complete a school week. I often have to miss days of school. I'm new to everything. I'm new to this country and stuff. I just started making new friends and I don't want to lose them because of my illness. My doctor said it will get better but I don't think I can wait very long. My parents, family members, family friends and friends (back at home) are constantly worried about me and every time I talk to them my illness is brought up. I have to constantly lie to people's faces saying 'I'm fine' when I am really not. I feel like a constant burden that everyone has to feel sorry for and I can't take it anymore... I want to be normal again. I want to go back to the life I had two years ago... what's so hard in that? Because of this, I constantly get emotional breakdowns, crying almost everyday. My grades are suffering, people at school probably now know me as 'the sick girl' and I feel like I am missing out on life a lot. I hate my body for putting me through this stress. I am in constant pain, I can't even go to school sometimes. I hate my life the way it is... how can I deal with this emotionally? It's getting harder and harder for me everyday to cope with it.
Most Helpful Guy
I'm terribly sorry and would like to offer few solutions on my perspective..
1) try turning to religion.
2) seek counseling
3) seek another opinion from another doctor..
4) positivity can help a lot... and people heal fastest in a loving environment..
5) find yourself within yourself.. look for your inner talent and also search for your hobbies n fave passtimes...
6) have friends over or try leaving your room often do your best to not lock yourself up idle..
it takes 21 days for happiness to change you're thoughts.. remember three things you're grateful/happy about three times daily..
hope this helps..4
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Most Helpful Girl
Have you told your friends about your medical issues? Honestly I think being open with your school friends would take a huge weight off of your mind.
If you have any friends at school that are willing to video call you and have the camera facing the teacher so you can somewhat fee like you're there. That could help greatly when you physically can't make it. Though always ask the teachers first and let them know about your medical issues too.
Good news about the part where you said, " people at school probably now know me as 'the sick girl." I doubt anyone in your school is thinking that and are probably worried about themselves and how they come off to others.
At 19:09 is when he explains more about what I mean.
Also always know you're never alone when it comes to these kinds of feelings. There are thousands or millions of people that feel the same way as you do. I myself go through those feelings as well when it comes to feeling like a burden to anyone you come in contact with. In my case it's due to my comorbid (having 2 or disorders) mental disorder. Dealing with those feelings isn't easy but reminding yourself that you still have the future, that things can always change for the best. That tends to help you get through the present. Even if that's not how things truly turn out in the end, still it helps you to keep moving forward.1