I've done a lot of drugs and had sex with a lot of people. I started having sex, drinking, smoking etc super young before high school even and I'm addicted to a lot of it. I feel like it destroyed my soul spiritually. I just want to feel like a moral person for once in my life but I'm a scumbag in reality. I've done a lot of bad things and just want that innocence I had when I was really young and it's making me feel empty I didn't really have any childhood.
Most Helpful Girl
You are not a scumbag. You have made some poor choices, but your body and soul are not inferior to the rest of the world's. Remember that. If you need help overcoming addictions to alcohol, drugs, and smoking, there are counseling services and halfway houses and other support groups that can help. Your past does not define who you are for the rest of your life. You can always change if you truly want to. Some things that you can try to do in the mean time are 1) find a religion or spiritual faith that resonates with you, 2) volunteer helping kids who might be lost like you were to help them make better choices, 3) ween off of the meaningless sex.0
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Most Helpful Guy
Stop doing all those things that make you believe are evil. Aim to help people, stay clean, have a healthy lifestyle, and most of all, give it time. Once you're accustomed to this change and as time goes by you'll regain that innocence you crave.0