Nope. I am ugly, so therefore I don't even look at hot guys. They intimidate me anyway, but even if they didn't I wouldn't try because I know they won't date me. I go for guys that girls consider average, and they reject me. So if the guys that most girls overlook reject me, then I must be nothing but a hideous person and will never get with anyone.
Four years ago, I fell hard for this guy that is a good friend of mine. We hung out quite a bit and the more I hung out with him, the more I wanted him. He very funny, smart and a gentleman. But he very rarely gets dates (he's still a virgin and he's 26, but that makes no difference to me. I don't have much experience so it would be nice to have someone who won't judge me) because he is short and chubby and he has bad acne, but none of that mattered to me. I've never met anyone I've connected so well with. Neither one of us want kids, we both have the same interests which is why we hang out a lot. So I finally got the nerve to ask him out, and he rejected me. He said "You're a good friend, but I don't find you attractive at all, sorry ,in fact not many guys do because you're kind of ugly." Which was a major blow to the self-esteem, especially since I was only 22. Usually if a guy rejects me they just say no. They don't tell me to my face that I am ugly. He's the first. I stopped asking guys out for about a year after that and even now it terrifies me. Back then I knew I wasn't beautiful, I could see it in the mirror but it was still harsh to have my best friend call me ugly. I guess best friends do tell the truth though, lol.
And he was busy trying to get my other best friend who is gorgeous but she has never wanted him, because she likes tall guys with dark hair and he is short with blond hair.
We still hang out quite a bit and sometimes I still kind of wish something would happen, but I've accepted it and I am currently pursuing a guy I work with, but I doubt anything will work out between my co-worker and I either. The co-worker and I connect really well though, but I'm thinking it won't happen. He doesn't want kids either, and plus he loves hiking, which is my favorite thing in the world to do. We plan to start hiking together once the weather gets warmer and we are buying season passes together for the local trails. Whenever you buy a season pass, they give you two so we figured it'd be cheaper for us to just split.
It's false hope, but I'm hoping the hikes will bring us closer.
And my guy friend who rejected me also knows a guy he wants to set me up with, so I'll see what happens with that too.