My boyfriend and I have been dating for 3.5 years and have discussed marriage. We have never had a single fight/argument until this past weekend.
Several months ago (maybe a year) I came across some nude pictures on his computer of several women (downloads from porn sites). I told him that I was uncomfortable about him having it on there (as I am self conscious and had a previous boyfriend who had a genuine addiction to porn which left me fairly scarred). He deleted everything and we were fine. However, about a month ago, I found in his web history, him looking at playboy torrents/downloads and confronted him. He denied it at first, but when I said the evidence he was guilty and finally admitted to it. He was trying to download full playboys. Now, over the weekend, he failed to delete his history on his computer and as I was typing in a URL, an "ex girlfriend" and "amateur" site auto-filled the line. I looked at the history and there were tons of sites with pictures of nude females in all kinds of provocative positions. Plus, all the girls are nothing like what I look like and are fairly reminiscent to his ex's.
Should I be upset? He says that there is no emotional involvement (and I know guys are "visual") but it doesn't dull the pain. I have talked with him about the lack of passion in the bedroom as I am much more sexual than he his. I only see him on the weekends and I would have thought that he would have just as much pent up sexual energy from the week and just want to attack me on the weekends. But it's never that way. Could it be because he's jacking off to these images during the week when we're not together? Should I feel almost cheated from the time that we could be sharing together? My emotions are running amok and he feels horrible. I just don't know quite how to react.
Advice? Opinions?
Several months ago (maybe a year) I came across some nude pictures on his computer of several women (downloads from porn sites). I told him that I was uncomfortable about him having it on there (as I am self conscious and had a previous boyfriend who had a genuine addiction to porn which left me fairly scarred). He deleted everything and we were fine. However, about a month ago, I found in his web history, him looking at playboy torrents/downloads and confronted him. He denied it at first, but when I said the evidence he was guilty and finally admitted to it. He was trying to download full playboys. Now, over the weekend, he failed to delete his history on his computer and as I was typing in a URL, an "ex girlfriend" and "amateur" site auto-filled the line. I looked at the history and there were tons of sites with pictures of nude females in all kinds of provocative positions. Plus, all the girls are nothing like what I look like and are fairly reminiscent to his ex's.
Should I be upset? He says that there is no emotional involvement (and I know guys are "visual") but it doesn't dull the pain. I have talked with him about the lack of passion in the bedroom as I am much more sexual than he his. I only see him on the weekends and I would have thought that he would have just as much pent up sexual energy from the week and just want to attack me on the weekends. But it's never that way. Could it be because he's jacking off to these images during the week when we're not together? Should I feel almost cheated from the time that we could be sharing together? My emotions are running amok and he feels horrible. I just don't know quite how to react.
Advice? Opinions?
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