We were together for over 6 months. (we are both 22, btw). We met in Berlin, where I am from, and he is from New York. We only spent 29 hours together and knew we were meant to be. After 54 days I flew to New York. He immediately asked me to be his girlfriend. I was there for 3 weeks. We had a great time, flew to California, I met his family and friends and it was the best time of our life. Then I went back to Berlin. I canceled my flat lease and three weeks later went to New York, finally, for 3 total months. He was so happy about this and we were so in love. We lived together in his apartment and we were so so so happy. He is an accountant and has not much time, he works late. His flatmate moved out end of December and he didn't find a new one yet. Then I got really sick and he paid for all my medical expenses. He also has his CPA exam in the end of January or beginning of February, and he is studying every day (he failed once before so he is taking it again). Basically, he has a lot of stress at the moment. When I flew back home on New Years, we were so happy, and he said "We will figure this out, I am sure". He always said that. He was more positive than I most of the time. He could not afford to fly me out again and I got really anxious about when we would see each other again. I think I pressured him a little too much. Then 3 days ago I booked a ticket for the 26th. I told him and he seemed not excited, but he also was at work when I called, so he was holding back as usual at work. Then later he texted that he was looking forward to me coming and that he is really happy. He wrote me the same day (before I told him about the flight) how much he loved me and that I should be positive and that better days will come and I should not doubt his love or anything, because we are meant to be together.
Then 2 days ago, that email with breaking up, out of nowhere. He wrote he thought about it all night and that he made his decision. He is not ready to make that kind of commitment at this point in his life and that he couldn't give me the attention and affection I need.
I called him afterwards and confronted him but he was cold as always (he was also at work). He told me it was his final decision.
I told him we need to talk about this and if I can call again. He said I should call in his lunch break.
I didn't call. He wrote another email telling me to tell him 5 minutes before I call so he could go downstairs. I did not call.
He is not the kind of guy who would do that. I talked to his dad and he was in total shock. I am really confused.
I don't really know what to do because I love him and I know he loves me.
Yesterday I got an email that told me information of what time he leaves today to go to Georgia to visit his grandparents and when he would return on Sunday and that he has his phone with him if I wanna call and talk. What does that mean now?
Is there a chance of us getting back?
What is going to happen now?
I haven't contacted him yet.
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*Puts on superman cape* Remember, I'm not trying to be rude, I'm trying to get straight to the point of what the dilemas are.
[ Reality check ]
Problem 1) "He could not afford to fly me out again and I got really anxious about when we would see each other again. I think I pressured him a little too much. Then 3 days ago I booked a ticket for the 26th. I told him and he seemed not excited, but he also was at work when I called, so he was holding back as usual at work."
- Did you pay for the ticket, or did you book it against what he was saying about not having the finances available- then asking him to pay for it?
Problem 2) " He wrote me the same day (before I told him about the flight) how much he loved me and that I should be positive "
- Why was he reminding you to be positive? Did you express any feelings to him during that call after scheduling the ticket that made you seem doubtful or upset / etc?
Problem 3) "...because we are meant to be together."
- That statement is bullsh*t, I don't care what anyone says- no one will be "meant" for each other in slightly over 54 days. It takes time to grow together and understand each other's flaws, then more time to learn to appreciate those flaws.
Problem 4) (After you got the breakup email) "I called him afterwards and confronted him "
- Never call out your spouse on something. It's different if the situation demands that you do so (You notice that your spouse was cheating / etc... But in this situation, do not). Confronting someone or trying to "push" the issue and get what you want- is a subject to tread lightly on. I'll cover this more later
Problem 5) "I told him we need to talk about this and if I can call again. He said I should call in his lunch break. I didn't call"
- Just like you expect from the guy, you should call when you say your going to call ;D It's just curteousy
[ GOOD NEWS! ]
- There was nothing that I noticed which was "hostile" per se'. It seems like you are overbearing him with affection during a time that is completely filled. This in turn, makes him feel like you require more "maintenance" (aka affection) than he can hand out at this point in time. This is good news because the situation isn't hostile- it's indifferent. Meaning that there are still open doors for you to try a round two
[ My advice ]
- Work on expressing your feelings through ACTIONS and not words. You don't need to travel across the world to see him, but it's sweet that your doing so. Instead of showing up to kiss and play "love-doves" you want to show up and show that you appreciate his efforts and hard work, if you do that- he will shower you with affection.
(Example: Study with him and if he becomes stressed out, bring him some coffee and kiss him on the cheek while his nose is in a book)- bet'cha 10 bucks that he turns around to kiss you on the lips!
Call him in a weeks time and say "How have you been" and act like everything is normal.
O_O Holy sh*t I've ran out of room.