Thought I liked her as more than a friend, but now I don't even like her as a friend?

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Thought I liked her as more than a friend, but now I don't even like her as a friend?

About a year ago I met a girl, we became great friends, I soon developed unreciprocated feelings for her. She was cool about it, so we remained friends. Since we go to college with each other, we see each other every day, and hang out in the same friend circle. Despite my honest attempts, I retained feelings for her.

When summer started, I was honestly glad to be out of the cycle of seeing her and seeing her with the guy she hooks up with (who is somewhat verbally cruel, and this has upset her several times). At any rate, I was happy doing me, and we started hanging out in the summer. Though we were "friends", hanging out always involved activities you'd expect from people dating. I would have brought this up, except that she still regularly hooked up with the other guy as well.

For some reason, last week I just told her 100% how I feel, about her and I, and her and the hookup, and about how I'm having a difficult time handling this.

So far as school goes, we're cordial and talk normally, but I don't know where it goes from here. I sense the girls she goes out on Fridays with don't like me (tbh, I don't much like that they hook up with guys that are jerks to them... something I suspect has rubbed off on the girl I like). She has admitted she liked/likes/has feelings for me, but saw dating me as "for later/after college" when she's "figured herself out".

This afternoon, I heard her girlfriends talking about her, specifically talking about how she left them to hook up with the jerk guy. This combination of 1) hearing her "close" friends talk about her, and 2) knowing she went back to the guy after many professions she was done being treated badly by him made me just... disgusted.

At this point, I feel sad for her. And angry that she will most likely continue doing this stuff. I don't find this attractive, romantically or platonically. If we weren't in school I'd just... pull away entirely I feel.

What should I do?
Thought I liked her as more than a friend, but now I don't even like her as a friend?
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