She wants nothing serious but wants to date me

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ill make this as short as I can, I feel sh*t and need a hug I guess,

went on a date with this girl, went perfect, text after and she even mentioned how perfect it was! sweet!

the day after she brought up how she isn't looking for anything serious, I say its cool, I don't rush into anything, just relax and lets have fun, (figured it was her feeling cagey and maybe that would change)

Second date next day, was dvd on the sofa, we got all cuddly pretty quick and wasn't awkward, movie ended and got pretty kissy, we then lay on the sofa and chatted for ages with her in my arms, commented saying the first kiss was great!

sweet

So the tables turn and she's the one txting me when I wake up, then again in the evening, she then suggests a 3rd date,.. great!

ill add that we've been txting everyday inbetween these dates for pretty much most of the day, as far as dating is going this is going fantastic,

she said she wanted to get another dvd cause she had lots of fun spending time with me and relaxing, (we both train so a relaxing night is always desirable)

3rd date success, no sexy time or anything, was great, just kissy and nice.

she was out with the girls the next night, she called me later in the night just to chat, this while being out on a night out with her girls, I asked what she wanted and she said just to say hi, :)

so anyways I finished work and was heading past where she was out so said id pick her up on the way home.

all 3 of them in the car and her up front holding my hand and stroking the hair behind my ear, all great. great kiss when she left also, (friends staying in her place)

5th date was dinner and cinema, went great till after the movie, I got this weird vibe heading home, I held her hand while walking about with her, (didnt think much of it)

so we get home, I feel kinda sh*tty, we get txting and she asks what I'm looking for? I said I'm enjoying hanging out, why?

she goes into how she doesn't want anything with anyone, I tell her to relax and have fun, we get on great together and I don't rush into anything, she agrees to not think about it and now we are back to organize another date, sweet...(heres the problem)

the next day I text her saying, "thanks for being honest with me from the start, really means alot, but I guess you're right, I think you're so lovely and great to hang out with but I do like the possibility of us being a couple, I'm gonna make a tough call here and say I don't want to see you anymore only because I like you and I want to avoid disappointment, I enjoyed every minute of it, :) xx

so txting back and forth saying I should have told her b4, bla bla, I just said its bad timing, she said that when with me she loved it, but when not she just thought too much, she was so happy to have met me and said to be friends, I said no cause ill only end up wanting more, it ended with her saying to still text her and to stay in touch,

my plan was to leave her be so she could clear her head,? am I crazy? fix it! I feel like poop :(
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im thinking about just txing her saying, "hey, you really confused me the other day, I don't know what I'm looking for but I do know I miss your company and would like to take you out again? :) x"

Realizing I made a mistake reading over that! :(
She wants nothing serious but wants to date me
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