My boyfriend is scaring and abusing me but I can't leave him?

Anonymous
our relationship started out great but now I don't know what happened

he's always mad at me. at first he would yell and throw things and punch doors then it escalated and now he's hits me..the 1st times he would apologize but now he doesn't anymore and he told me I make him act this way so it MY fault.when he's not mad he acts like everything is fine and I'm supposed to act like everything is fine too. but then something will happen to set him off and he hurts me so bad. he punches he, throws me down to the floor and kicks me, pulls my hair, calls me horrible names and once he even spit on me. all I ever do is cry and he doesn't care. he either leaves the room or turns on the TV and ignore me. I need someone to help me..im scared because last night he slammed me on our bed and choked me. I thought my boyfriend was gonna kill me. I just don't know what to do anymore..i don't want to leave him because I still love him somehow and because I'm scared..why is he some mad all of a sudden..could therapy help him? I love him and I know he still loves me. but I need some help..
My boyfriend is scaring and abusing me but I can't leave him?
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