Hi everyone! For starters, I can't help but feel a bit used and a bit easy after what took place Tues. My ex boyfriend called me like 2wks ago and said he wanted to work things out and get back together, heck he even promised to get me a ring. I was totally elated about the entire thing. Then he told me that he would be coming over Tues. to spend the night.
So I was ok with that. He came over ordered some food and we ended up fooling around. I pulled away initially because I was not sure but he began touching me, so I allowed it because I was thinking of his needs and not mine. There was no actual sex, but I did give him a hand job which made him ejaculate. Well then after he tried to sleep and was like I can't sleep here. He said it was because the bed was a twin size.
He grabbed his toothbrush, and his sleeping clothes hugged and kissed me and then left. Before he exited I asked mentioned the ring to him. He replied by saying "i'll think about and then he said said he's not in all that lovey stuff."
Now, I am still a virgin and I am 21 but I feel very guilty and used. How is it possible that he wanted to work things out if that took place. Then on top of that He called me that Wed. and was brief with me and I have not heard from him since.
So my ? is do you think I am easy because of this? I honestly in my heart thought we were getting back together and it's not like I imagined this, he verbally said that he loved me and that he wanted to work things out again. I am not used to a guy telling me one thing and then doing the opposite. I figured if he didn't want me he would not have said that he loved me and wanted to get back together.
Also this was not just a random guy, this was my ex of a yr. so I thought he was serious when he said that he wanted to get back together and start our relationship.
I honestly feel like trash right now. please help me and give me advice.
I know that I didn't actually have sex, but I can't help but feel really trashy right now because I typically have good morals.
Please give me some advice and tell me what's going on here.
Ok someone told me that the guy ran away because he was scared to commit. Maybe I am old fashioned but I thought that anytime you are in a relationship, you are committed to that person. I know a guy @ work who has a girlfriend & he dates her and only her
2 infogirl: I know that if I don't call him and end it.. he will call me 2 weeks later acting like things are great. So I made an attempt to finish everything and tell him 2 move on, but I didn't get 2 accomplish that because he was so short.
oh gosh! plz plz plz don't feel used over a hand job! I know it may seem like a lot to you because you are still a virgin, but in reality its not a big deal...blow job okay I can see where you would feel used..i don't think he went into it thinking "oh let me get a hand job out of her and leave" guys can give themselves a hand job, you didn't do anything that he can't do, therefore I can't see that you were used. he is being a typical guy whos not thinking, and you are thinking way to much into the fact that he was using you. just because you gave him a hand job does not mean you are a bad person who doesn't follow morals..if you were going down the street picking out some random guy and giving HIM a handjob, then I would say you should feel like trash...if ANYTHING he thought he prob was going to get more out of you, and he didn't..hooking up after a break up usually leaves one or another person confused, and that is what is going on here..you were def NOT used, he could do this to himself...and I'm pretty sure he didn't say he wanted to get back together and start a relatioship JUST to get a hand job out of you..he might have actaully felt that when you guys spoke about it..but like I said guys are weird sometimes, they don't think, and you just have to give him some time to himself..he will be back ..and once he does just tell him you don't think its a good idea to hook up if your not in a commited relationship..and that's that...YOU WERE NOT USED..so pleaaaase don't worry anymore =)
You'll get over it, a little bit at a time. There's no quick fix.
But there's the possibility to learn something valuable.
Most of the time we feel used, it's because *we allowed someone to use us.* And you said exactly why we let others use us:
"I was thinking of his needs and not mine."
Not speaking up about your needs, in order to please someone else, is a sure way to feel used.
So prepare yourself for next time. Realize *ahead of time* what your weaknesses are -- have you been lonesome? Have you stayed in touch with this guy? Are you a people pleaser? Do you often put the needs of other people before your own needs?
If you can realize what mistakes you made this time, and why you made them, you're less likely to make again them in the future. Work on standing up for yourself in little ways. The more practice you get, the stronger you'll be for big time occasions like this when you want to stand up for yourself.
That sucks that you got used like that I'm sorry. A similar thing happened to me...only worse. Yea, exs think we're easy targets since most of the time there's still feelings there. You were kinda gullable when your ex said he wanted to work things out-out of the blue. You accepted his offer a little too quickly and made yourself vulnerable...but it's not your fault, obviouslly you trusted him a lot. You were not easy-that was your ex of a year and you loved him and he said he loved you too and you were(or so you thought) in a relationship. Maybe it's good this happened so you will be prepared in the future-since you now know this guy is not boyfriend (or even friend) material. Just think of it as an experience and move on; don't beat yourself up over it. Don't believe what a guy says-believe what he does. Don't feel like trash, he's the one who's trash.
Don't...I repeat don't call him...ever. Calling means you care. He doesn't-why should you? If he cared he would have called you. You don't have to tell him to move on and not call you-he'll get the point when you never answer/return his calls. A similar thing happened to me-eventually, I just started ignoring him because he kept acting like everything was great. 6 months passed-one day we started talkin again and I was so happy we had "reconciled" eventually we start talkin every week I thought we were "back to normal" but I was wrong and got humiliated. I honestly wish I had never started talking to him again. It's hard to get over someone you were with for a long time-even if they betrayed you. You just want to give them a benefit of a doubt...but don't. Go out with your friends and date new people.
If you're still a virgin you're not easy! It sucks but that's how a lot of guys are. They just care about themselves and getting what they want which is usually OFF. I've been with 7 guys sexually (actual sex) and most have just used me which sucks but that just means I have to either A) change my ways and be stronger or B) not give a shit and mess around and get off without having feelings. I've chosen A because I want to be respected from now on, and if a guy likes me enough he won't expect me to do anything with him until I'm ready and he will hang around regardless! Just don't fall into the trap anymore, tell him if he wants to mess around or get back together you have to be married first and see if he stays or goes!